my mouth sought to slay the elephant in the room
but the cacophany of silences were pervasive
in my eagerness for understanding, for release
I sought him while he sat at that dead end
flicking bits of world from his shoulder and muttering to himself
my presence seemed offensive, disrupting his agony w/ my own
and he paled at my love, flinched from my trembling touch
saw my scrambling to be close as a threat
i slid through his fingers onto the floor
should i go?….and he yanked me back coldly
and i, wedged between pain and longing
feared the open sky more than the hated cage
my mouth sought to slay the elephant in the room
A Boy Is Dead, His Racist Killer Free And White People Want You To Grieve Correctly & Give Them A Thumbs Up.
Trayvon Martin’s killer george zimmerman was found NOT GUILTY last night and the black community is lamenting…wailing it’s desolate loss, this is confirmation of our lack of humanity to this society. The black community is asking where justice is in this “post racial” nation. Black parents are wondering what they can possibly do to protect their black babies from attacks like these. The hopelessness in the face of this verdict is thick and pervasive and in the midst of it, there is such an outrageous anger, a feeling of VIOLENT DISGUST and it’s fall out. That fallout in which many white people have cheered and slapped this racist child murders back, invited him to talk on their shows and spewed such hatred about “niggers” and what we deserve, and baited us about how we do not REALLY care about black children that are murdered. They’ve suggested that black people die everyday, at their own hands and we dont care about that either. And in the face of that, a few of us grieving black people have said things like “i hate white people” , an HONEST and deeply hurtful feeling to express, a valid representation of the pain and the fear of being black in a white supremacist society. What happens? Suddenly all the white “allies” come out of the woodwork to tell these black people how “wrong” it is to hate them…….so the death of a black boy is about the white people who empathize?
Tell me….when was the last time black hatred for white people saved a black life? Why is it that black people cannot have ONE HOUR, ONE MISERABLE FUCKING HOUR to grieve the loss of Trayvon and the loss of his justice? Why couldnt this be about US, black people, for one day? Why do we have to watch our mouths so that white people dont get offended? Why do we have to acknowledge that white people are sad too? WHY DO WE HAVE TO PAT WHITE PEOPLE ON THE BACK FOR HAVING A CONSCIENCE when they cannot possibly comprehend what we have LOST throughout history and what this verdict means to our lives and our children’s lives NOW? I got so many “i am a white woman and i cried my eyes out over Zimmerman’s verdict” tweets and responses, that I was ready to flip my shit! WHO GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU? Why is this about you? The fact that you can be sad about this one moment and send your child to the store in a hoody the next, without wondering if they’ll ever make it back, is a PRIVILEGE. One that I and other black people do not have. But you want us to stop our crying, you want us to stop being angry, you want us to sit quietly and listen to you regurgitate Martin Luther King quotes about darkness and light, you want us to APOLOGIZE for saying we hate you…..the nerve….the unmitigated GALL. You call yourself an ally but you are stuck on PRIVILEGE, the privilege you have to wake up with the complexion for the protection and never have to worry a day in your life about losing your child for their skin color. But you want to shut black people up because they hurt your feelings?
You want us to stop crying and pander to you, coddle you for saying you care, or even for genuinely caring. But this is not about you, this is not about you caring or you marching or you picketing, it is about the fact that the grieving response of a black person takes precedent over your FEELINGS about someone saying they hate you. A hate that has no oppressive power but apparently hurts your delicate sensibilities. You should ask yourself why you actively sought to address a black person, the night of this verdict, for saying they hate white people. Why addressing them was more necessary than acknowledging what said black person lost and giving them time to grieve. You should ask yourself why you decided to give that black person a talking to instead of one of the other white people calling Trayvon a nigger and laughing and baiting black people for being upset.
I’m not fucking here for it, there are some great white allies who have STFU and refused to take the “i hate white people” statements personally, because they know that this situation is not about them, they do not need to defend themselves, they do not need a pat on the back for rallying behind the black community. These white people have my ultimate respect and my love, too often do white allies DEMAND attention for being allies, demand whatever cause they take up with black people ultimately shine the light on them, these are the allies that can KEEP their “support”.
Above is an article that describes the story of a man who lost his wife because he could not get her home from their vacation because of fat discrimination on airlines. …..I have something to say.
I see a serious problem attached to privilege in this world…..it is by pure privilege that you are one of the people who comfortably fit on air planes….there are alot of people who dont…..extremely tall ppl (6’7), large people (body builders), sumo wrestlers (extremely healthy athletes) …they dont deserve to get on air planes and fly by virtue of their size? what about anorexics? they have an eating disorder….(which by the way is more like a mental illness than an issue of self control) but bc it causes them to grow inward….they are allowed on air planes? I’m sick to death of the people who despise fat people…constantly attributing their size to over eating (when they dont know WHY that person is obese), ascribing personality traits and characteristics to total strangers (laziness, greed, stupidity)…simply bc they LOOK a certain way. I do not know the particulars of why this woman didnt seek a doctor in the country she visited but i do not question her right to travel abroad or her desire to go HOME to seek treatment. Especially with all the stigma world wide of fat people who are sick, you cannot trust any doctor to treat you…..even then, no one has a right to question her desire for treatment in the place of her choice OR her desire for a vacation with her husband, deteriorating health or not!
The fact of the matter is she was denied ACCESS to the only means of travel, for life saving treatment bc she was not skinny and THAT is discrimination based on size. You can blame her all you want too, call her fat, blame her for going on vacation, blame her for not getting treatment in her vacation spot, blame her for being sick and suggest she shud have done something more morally acceptable to avoid being in her predicament but you would be speaking from a place of ignorant bigotry if you did. No one tells people who are handicapped that it’s their fault they dont have access to buildings that serve the public ….if they can’t walk up the damn stairs to get service…there is this false assumption that every fat person is fat as a result of some moral failing. Firstly not every person who is fat has a problem with food, some of them have physical issues that cause them to gain weight. Basically not all fat people are over eaters! uch. And those who are? do you know what bingeing without purging is? it’s an eating disorder, like anorexia …but because it makes people fat, it is not looked at as a disorder…instead people speak hatefully of it, ascribe behavior to it and approach it as a moral issue instead of a psychological issue. Every fat person that has any problem of any kind brought it on themselves because they failed to be skinny and that is simply FALSE and sickening. Check your fucking privilege, you do not know everything about a fat person just bc you can SEE that they are fat. I”m so sorry this man lost his wife in part because of the airlines bigotry and I hope they pay out the ass for it. It IS the airlines responsibility to accommodate the public, no matter WHO that public is. Too many people are willing to excuse the fact that airlines make seats as small as possible, based on a model of human size (as if every human being were objectively between 4’11-5’10 and no more than 150lbs) in order to save money….yet they charge out the ass for tickets no matter WHO is riding….the airlines are also the only ones with the power to take someone country to country in ALOT of cases….so YES, they held the life of this woman in their hands….and the fat stigma is backing them right now but they are WRONG! UCH. Also, was it a question of giving her more than one seat and slightly under booking the flight? If so…why wasnt it done? Or even delaying the flight for a few ppl, considering the health of this woman? according to the article..they got her ON the plane then made her disembark for the “safety” of the other passengers…….i dont like that shit, not one bit
I’d also like to add that the majority of my rage is on the comment section of this article, the fat shaming from the general thread initially had me lit but the fact is that the airline told this man to let them know when they’d be flying back so they could do what they’d did before to get this woman home and somehow…….SOMEHOW they couldnt?
your name on the tip of my tongue…. smooth your skin slid…too long…
that night you told me to whisper
left an angry flush from your fingertips along my back….just to get a rise out of me
pebble my skin and slap against me even in memory….
your phantom kiss runs to pools slick around my thighs and I find each night as restless as the one before….
all from the yearning…
fevered in me….
slow burning and flameless….
the sun flickered, summoned by my sleeping moan….
we bewitched daybreak with our loving
called the stars to the sky through the quickening…. blended pulse
stayed the sun until our completetion
squeezing infinity into mortal hours for sake of longevity
the cold encompasses the globe…but we smolder